What I've Learnt Since High School

How good are those Facebook 'on this day' memories? The correct answer is they're great, they're funny, they're brilliant- until they aren't anymore. Like today when Facebook showed me that this time last year I graduated from high school- I've been out of school for a whole damn year. This made me so annoyed- I've been out in the big, wide world for a year and what have I got to show for it? Not a hell of a lot. But I mean I must have learnt something along the way haven't I? Let's hope, or this blog post has absolutely no where to go.

I guess the biggest thing I've learnt is how to be independent (kind of). Okay no but seriously I'm pretty independent now- I mean I don't live at home, I pay my own bills, do my own washing (and Brodie's because I don't think he's actually used the washing machine the whole time we've lived together. Except when I was away for four days he may have used it then), I cook dinner every night (still the hardest thing I have to deal with!!!), if that's not independence I don't know what is.

I've learnt that I don't need to know I want to do in life right now. Wow we are getting deep now. I graduated with no atar score and the vaguest idea of what I want to do. I didn't know what I want to do but I knew it was going to involve writing. So far I've started a journalism course and not finished it, I've spent the year managing the dairy and freezer sections at iga. And I've ended the year with quitting that job to work for my parents. I still have absolutely no clue what I want to do with the rest of my life, I mean really, no idea. But for now I'm okay with not having any bloody idea what I want to do because it'll come to me eventually, (hopefully).

I've learnt that you don't have to impress anyone. I swear I spent the whole last year of high school trying to impress people that I don't even talk to anymore. I had parties all the time so I seemed popular, I posted photos of said parties all over social media to show people that I had friends to party with. I wanted people to think that I was impressive as a human being- I wanted people to like me. Since leaving high school (and in part probably having something to do with having a boyfriend) I don't care to impress people, I don't mind if people don't like me, I don't post on social media as much because I don't need the comments and likes of the people I know to feel good. The people around me and the confidence in myself is enough to not need to impress people anymore.

I've learnt that high school friends are very temporary. I left high school thinking that the group of people I was friends with were going to stick by me forever, we'll probably not forever but you know what I mean. So we had a "family" as we called ourselves and there was six of us in it, three girls, three guys (how convenient). I'm not on bad terms with any of them, in fact Brodie was one of them and we've been together for a year. The family split up- got different friends, moved away, found better things to do, you know how that happens. It made me realise that I wasn't all that cut up about it in the end, because I now have more friends in the bigger world, I mean we all have our own lives but we're friends and it's fine, and the people I see now somewhat understand me better.

I've learnt that 8:30 isn't really that early of a start. I would be so happy with an 8:30 start now!! I start at seven Monday to Friday and ITS HORRIBLE. I'm a teenage girl who likes to sleep, doesn't my boss realise that?

I've learnt that getting above 50% isn't the most important thing in life. To be completely honest I haven't used anything that I learnt in human bio or modern history or really even health studies. The most beneficial classes I took we defiantly English and Business Studies. I used to get so caught up on my grades and stress myself out over it, but for what? Why does it matter in the end? I graduated, I didn't get an ATAR, I probably won't need an ATAR anywhere in the future, I'm probably never going to need my modern history or human bio or politics and law skills- so why the hell did I spend SO long stressing myself out over them?

I've learnt that you have to look after yourself before you can look after anyone else. In high school I wasn't that fussed about myself, I put a lot of people before me and I shouldn't have done that. From dumbarse boys to needy girls- I was more interested in looking after them and their needs instead of my own. For some reason I continued to do this for a while after high school- caring for everyone else and putting myself to the side and I think that was a contributing factor to how bad my mental health got, so I don't do it anymore- I try my hardest to look after myself before looking after everyone else.

All in all, I've learnt a lot by living in the big wide world, and this is just some of it. In all, I'm not sure if life has been better since high school, it's definitely hasn't been worse though.

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